Not that it hasn’t been around forever but lately “image”
has been thrown right in my face more than usual. So obsessed with image... we
are.
I was at a party recently and a girl said to me, “your beard
is so perfect.” ... in a very condescending tone of voice... i was drunk and in
a really happy, party mood so i just smiled, ignored and moved on. I couldn’t
even tell if i was offended or not. An absolutely silly comment to be offended
by but a tone that very much appealed to the “what’s your problem??” part of my
brain, which fortunately was out shined by my merry, mirthful mood. (in such situations
i find asking “why do you have to be so condescending?” very politely with a
smile usually provides the offender optimal embarrassment and shame. After which
they will stay out of your way or even better, suck up. Aren’t i a passive
aggressive dick!??!). this girl was a complete stranger by the way...
So, needless to say it stuck with me for a few days and had
me thinking of image... our image... my image... perceived image... projected
image...
To her my beard might’ve been more attractive if i purposely
messed it up as to make it look like i don’t care... which... alkbvnpoehgnfvawnnpoendnvdlk...
Going out of your way and spending more thought and time
into NOT LOOKING fake is much worse than just being fake... what happened to “be
yourself!”?? seems like in an age where “being yourself” and individuality is
encouraged and championed more than ever
we seem to be getting even further from it! People are TRYING TOO HARD to be
different and original when it’s not something that should be labored at
especially when you’re looking at others for what you want to be. Some people
seem to be doing the exact opposite of what it is to be original to be
original. Reminds me of the conforming of the non conformist goth kids in south
park... JUST BE... JUST FUCKING BE, B!!!
I’m looking to move again and wanting out of my somewhat
self imposed suburban trap. I’ve wanted to move to east van for years now as it’s
the cultural hub of the lower mainland but i want to be part of a community of
like minds as well... which i thought i would get there. After all my
experiences and interactions i just find people there to be just as negative and
snobbish as the yaletown yuppies... maybe even more! Definitely not a type of
community i’d want to be a part of... Broke yuppies pretending to be rich vs. Rich
hipsters pretending to be broke... sorry for the generalization and labelling
as im sure both areas are peppered with genuine people but what are the chances
ill be living next to some. All this has me leaning towards new west but i
looked at a place in surrey that makes most practical sense financially and
otherwise but it’s across a retirement home and i saw many old couples in the
building on my visit.
Am i consciously trying to find a place most fitting my
personal needs?? Or am i subconsciously letting image make my decision??
Suddenly living among retired immigrants doesn’t seem so
bad.
