The Sun's Trap

First off, i'd like to apologize for not writing more often. the sun is directly to blame. i'm sure i've mentioned before that i write more often in the darker seasons. once the sun starts to come out for some reason i'm not as inspired. i love the sun and although it enlightens my life and spirit, it doesn't enlighten my thoughts much. i'm usually left with a false sense of euphoria. i'm a little more happy-go-lucky than usual, which in a way forces my brain to be a little more lethargic. and isn't that what happiness really is? slowing the brain down. sweeping the clutter under the rug. eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. "i think i'm dumb, maybe just happy" - kurt cobain

i've been blogging more often than i even thought i would be able to... up to about a month ago. this is has a lot to do with the fall and winter seasons. in hindsight i can see there was no way this blog would've started in spring or summer. there's something about the dark that keeps me thinking. lying in bed is when i come up with my best stuff but more often than not i'll be too lazy to get out of my warm blanket to get all the thoughts down. somewhat of an insomniac, i've written damn near whole stories and posts in my head trying to sleep. of course, this is completely counter productive towards my goals of sleeping AND writing. the faster the brain ball rolls, the further my slumber runs away.

often walks home from the bar or a friends house, with a buzz, the wind strong against my face and the occasional rain pour, start to strike strong clear thoughts and ideas within. a lot of times, i'm offered rides and my friends are perplexed to why i would walk when i can get a ride, well now you know. a lot of these posts are products of those walks. as soon as i get home i rush for my notebook or laptop.

this also explains my deep love for vancouver. lord knows, we get an abundance of rainy days and few sunny ones. but when it's here doesn't it make it that much more BRIGHTER!

the sun's bugging me right now and is holding me back from continuing further. so i'm just going free my fingers from my keyboard's cathartic grip and just enjoy the sun for what it is, the easiest, natural form of escape.